Blind

[Originally written 5 October 1994]

You are blind to what you see
Cannot value what you possessed
Won’t understand how much
– until I’ve upped and left.

What you wanted so much
– someone to take away the loneliness
Could be found here with me
And trusted in my faithfulness.

How can I leave you?
My mind can’t set you free
You’re the only thing I dream
And the only thing I see.

Sorry if I hurt you
If my selfishness tears us apart
But how do I prevent these feelings
And shut away my heart?

I wish for us more
But know that we will always be less
You conform to the rules of friendship
All the rest is hopelessness.

You’re destroying me you know?
Taking away my all
My world is swirling around me
As I begin to fall.

It’s vain to think more
What am I to you?
Nothing is going to happen
– No matter what I do.